Okay so I dont know whats wrong with me. I’m not sure if I have a mild form of Schizophrenia or if I just have serious anger issues. When I get mad, I get really mad and then these horrible thoughts immediately enter my head of severely hurting the person that made me mad, which I can get mad at things like someone looking at me the wrong way, talking to me the wrong way, someone being disrespectful, being to loud, or any little annoying thing. But the thing is that it can be the slightest amount of disrespect and it will either really enrage me or other times I wont even think twice about it. I don’t get why some days I can get so mad about something and then the same thing will happen another day and it wont bother me a single bit (That is what makes me think I have a mild form of Schizophrenia or something like that) When I get so mad I always end up fighting that person no matter who it is, my own brothers, my girlfriends sister or even a friend of mine. Before I go to bed at night I always have the worst thoughts of me getting avenge on my enemies or someone who has made me mad and it makes me get the shakes and I grind my teeth because I get so angry. I’m exactly like my father he is a very angry person that has been abused severely by his father his whole life and I grew up watching my father abuse my mom severely. I’m the only one though of all 4 siblings that gets angry like this so easily. I can easily say I get in about 2 fights a week and get in a argument every single day, because I get so mad so easily. Please help me? Whats wrong with me and what are things I can do to make this stop or better?
None of your symptoms is consistent with a schizophrenia diagnosis. Feeling uncontrollably angry is not a symptom of schizophrenia. The more likely explanation is that you are experiencing significant anger management problems. These problems most likely stem from having a father that you have described as being angry and abusive. As you stated, you were raised in an environment in which you witnessed your father physically abusing your mother.
Unfortunately, you may have never had a positive role model to demonstrate proper psychological and emotional strategies for handling difficult emotions. Thus, you developed maladaptive coping skills.
The good news is that you can learn a new set of skills. This can be best accomplished by seeing a therapist. That would be the most efficient way to learn those new skills. Therapists are trained to deal with the problems that you are struggling with.
Another option is to join an anger management support group. Check with local mental health agencies to inquire about what services are available to you. Many anger management classes, groups and programs are quite sophisticated and effective.
You could also read about self-help anger management techniques. Check Amazon, Barnes & Noble or your local library for books.
When your anger becomes overwhelming you react with physical aggression. You should explore other methods of channeling your strong emotions. Exercise is a great physical outlet. Through exercise, you could release much of your pent-up anger and frustration. Studies show that people who exercise have a greater capacity to control and manage their emotions than people who do not exercise. I am not suggesting that exercise is a “cure” for your anger problems but it has the potential to neutralize or decrease the intensity of your anger.
It is important that you make a concentrated effort to address this problem. The anger is taking a major toll on your life and it will likely interfere with your relationships. The find help tab can assist you in locating anger management programs or a therapist in your community. I wish you the best of luck.