The therapist prescribed me anti-depressants but im not depressed,maybe can get anxious but not anything new or bad for the most part. Now my problem is that I keep getting these episodes where I all of a sudden start not making sense and saying things like how can I walk to the sun or why is the lady stomping on ants like that when it was just a video of someone dancing. and i start like jumping around .yesterday i even sat in the fridge and started making strange sounds like an animal.I also will repeat the words shut up in a different voice.Its like this big rush I cant describe it.I sometimes get paranoid im being watched like through the computer screen or I CAN call some magical numbers in a foreign country. I make a pretty blank expression on my face. one common thread is i will always stare in the mirror and begin giving this weird creepy smile. another example was this photo of some dead guy that I laughed at for ten minutes straight and i was callin
g him a loser.Sometimes i see things moving at the corner of my eye and hear my name being called.what the fuck is this.Can you guys just give a guess to what it could be. I dont think its just anxiety tbh.I dont feel anxious for the most part.I also notice I pace around a lot and many people sometimes find what i say bizzare at times. I dont think the therapist or psychologist will take this seriously anyway. one time i even was sitting on the couch and started thinking someone from across the street had a sniper so i closed the curtains. Im so worn out i feel embarressed. I know my behaviour is somewhat bizarre but i cant control it tbh and in the moment of being paranoid about those things i truly believe those strange thoughts.To me at times they seem vary real. like yesterday for example I felt like I was being taken over my mind and then it happened,the bizarre behavior started up.
It’s important to report these symptoms to your treating professionals. Don’t assume that they won’t take you seriously. That might be what you fear but it isn’t necessarily what will happen. They need to know about your symptoms so they can adjust your treatment accordingly.
Relatedly, you stated that they gave you antidepressants despite your not having depression. Perhaps the symptoms you have described are a result of an inappropriate medication. This is yet another reason why it’s imperative to report your symptoms. Finding the right medication can take time and experimentation. Having feedback about medication effectiveness is an important element in determining the right treatment. Once they have your feedback, they may immediately try a different medication. But they won’t know that anything is wrong if you don’t report your symptoms. They need to know.
There’s no reason to feel embarrassed. You didn’t do anything wrong. You’re not doing this to yourself. Your treating professionals will not judge you. Their only goal is to help you feel better. Most people receiving medication will have to have it adjusted periodically throughout their treatment. It is most common for adjustment in medication to occur during treatment. It’s normal and natural. That’s how treatment works.
I hope that my advice helps you know how to proceed. I wish you luck in your continued efforts. If your symptoms become overwhelming, go to the hospital. They will provide immediate assistance. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle