I started to feel anxious and nervous last night. I got depressed and was thinking about things I am not happy with, even though I am happy with them. I feel sad about living with my parents but don’t think I am stable enough to live on my own. I feel sad about being with Terry even though I love him with all my heart. I feel sad about having no friends.. but don’t really feel like doing anything about it. I was really worried that I was going to hurt myself.. but I just tried to push the bad thoughts out of my head. I wonder when this is all going to be a memory and I will be normal again. I want to worry about normal things. I want to be mad about not having anything pretty to wear.. I want to worry about stupid materialistic things and how I am going to pay rent. Not about my sanity. I think about the strong person I used to be and it really sucks. I remember all the things that I could handle back then and now I worry about having to go to sleep at night. I used to LOVE sleep and nighttime. Now I just worry and feel the bad butterflies in the pit of my stomach and know the bad thoughts will follow soon. How do I make this stop?! I have been to a therapist who prescribed me Lorazepan, but it made me sick, i didnt like the loopy feeling. I told him I wanted to conquer this naturally. I am a lot better than I was a few months ago, but for no reason it just comes on and I feel sick and scared and nervous that I will do something horrible to myself or that I will never be normal again. Please, some advice to make it go away for good?
The most efficient way to solve this problem, in my opinion, would be to see a therapist. Therapists do not prescribe medication. You must have gone to either a primary care physician or a psychiatrist. Psychiatrists and primary care physicians, among others, can prescribe medication but therapists can’t. Therapists utilize talk therapy as a treatment modality. Something is causing you to feel frightened, sick and nervous. Talk therapy might be a tremendous benefit. It could help you to better understand your anxieties.
In addition, it seems as though you have only tried one medication. It didn’t work. You may have to try a number and a variety of different medications before you find one that works. I wouldn’t give up trying to find a medication that works.
If you are not interested in talk therapy, then a self-help approach that you might consider is to begin keeping a journal. Journaling might help to uncover patterns in your thinking. Having a tangible record of your thoughts could lead to a better understanding of what is causing your anxiety.
These self-help books might assist you with your journaling. I would recommend two books: The Feeling Good Handbook and Feeling Good: The New Mood Therapy Revised and Updated, both by David Burns. In addition, you may want to read the reviews for other self-help workbooks on websites such as Amazon or Barnes & Noble. Psych Central reviews one psychology book a month. Check Psych Central’s homepage for more information. I wish you the best. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle