Hello, I came across this site just a few moments ago and I felt as though it was credible. This is my story:
When I was 16, I was very motivated in school and happy, then all of a sudden one day, as I was in the bathroom just washing my hands, my life “collapsed”. I had this very strange and fearful feelings sweep through my entire body shaking my heart. It was very scary, but I decided to let it go. But it has never ended now three days later. It is so hard to get out of bed, especially in the beginning of the phase when it first started, i started learning by myself to cope with it, knowing that every day is a “scary” day. Let me also put this note out, at that time, I was very religious and practiced my religion every single day so I was satisfied until this “attack happened”. I started gradually hating practicing my religion because all the unnecessary thoughts that came through my head during prayer. So I backed away from religion in fear of these thoughts would anger God, even though I could not control them. These thoughts were devilish and evil. Moving on, I met my boyfriend up to this date when I was 17, we’re high school sweet hearts, he is an incredible man and has helped me a lot with my problems. Until again, one day, I had this sudden fear of him and lost all my emotions in one day and over night, i talked to him about it because i did not want to lose him and in my heart and logical mind i know that i love him and want to be with him, but these thoughts that are untrue keep controlling my mind and hence my feelings. I just don’t know how to get rid of them. They are very scary and mean thoughts that make me fearful, that make my heart race, that make me believe something that is not true and make it true..i just don’t know. and i feel anxious all the time, my neck hurts, i feel like i am choking, these thoughts are taking over my life every single day and moment..any help? Thank you.
It is difficult to know what may be wrong. What you might be describing are symptoms of anxiety or of panic attacks. Unfortunately, I do not have enough details to make that determination. I would recommend being evaluated by a therapist. He or she can gather much more information about your situation.
When dealing with anxiety, it is important to be as logical and as rational as possible. The key to curing anxiety is to force yourself to believe in reality at all times. Often, anxiety symptoms stem from an inability to see reality clearly. Individuals with anxiety have lost the capacity to do this effectively. This is a situation in which a therapist could be helpful. A therapist is an objective third party who is also trained to deal with anxiety and other related mental health problems. Anxiety medication or antidepressant medication may also provide you relief. The “find help” tab at the top of this page can help you locate a therapist in your community. I wish you the best of luck. Please take care.
Dr. Kristina Randle