Please I need to understand whats wrong with me. I would be shocked if I got a reply to this. One could only hope so much. I want to understand what’s wrong with me. I talk to this person in my head it’s weird because this person doesn’t feel like its apart of me. Its like its a ghost or something anyway here is how I feel when I wake up in the mourning. I wake up so tired all I would like to do is go back to sleep. I force myself to get up. I told my sister that I don’t feel normal and that something is wrong with me. She thinks I am fine but I’m not I can’t be, I feel it.She doesn’t know that I started cutting again. She would get so mad at me but its my life…right. maybe she is right… All I know is me cutting myself is helping me if no one want to help then what else am I going to do. I just don’t know anymore, I never really had a great life being picked on talked about. When I was in school I wrote poems to express how I feel if someone would have just really read them they would see they would know how I felt.I can’t talk to people,eat in front of people even my family. I hate myself more everyday she tells me People have it worse than I do.I know that, she makes me feel like I only care about myself I hate myself for feeling like this. I can’t help how I feel though. My sister told me that a Therapist wont help me they just want your money. If she could only see or feel how I feel everyday she wouldn’t last a day. What do I need to do. I just want to feel real. What about the person in my head is that something I need to worry about?
I believe it is time to seek help from a mental health professional or a physician. The main reason I am concerned is that you are cutting yourself. Self-harm is very dangerous. Seemingly, it is the only way you know how to feel better. If you were able to see a therapist he or she could work with you to develop new ways of coping. It is important that you learn that you don’t have to harm yourself to feel better.
You are having paranormal experiences at night. It is difficult to know why or what is happening. People who claim to be psychic or to speak to the dead often complain about being disturbed by the entities at night. It may be that you are having hallucinations. It might also be related to your irregular sleep patterns. Sometimes when we are between stages of sleep we have experiences that don’t make logical sense but seem very real. They can be frightening. Also, when someone experiences what seem like hallucinations or delusions, especially when they develop abruptly, it is important to rule out a medical explanation.
Your sister told you that therapists will not help you. I respectfully disagree because I believe she is incorrect. She may have had negative experiences with therapists or has never had an interaction with a therapist and she fears the unknown. People often fear the unknown.
I think you should be evaluated by a physician and you should also make an appointment with a mental health professional. You are at the point where you can barely sleep and you are harming yourself. Now is the time for you to seek help. Please do not take your sister’s advice. If you would like to search for a therapist in your community please go to this website. I hope you are able to find help. Thanks for your question. I wish you well.
